The look of helplessness!
One of my favourite shoots to date. Megan Irwin (Giant, IMG) is out of this world hotness!
Photographer: Emily Abay. Stylist: Sophie Barker. H&MUA: Justin Henry (2C Management)
I almost forgot about this assignment. I’m so tired..
I thought of going to bed. I thought of just.. letting it slip. I knew He’d notice, that He would make me pay for it. I kinda wanted it.
But I’m a good girl. Haha~
So..
I remember when I stumbled upon this picture. So many feelings. She’s just there, probably screaming in agony, unable to do anything. But She’s there to help. So caring, but at the same time, so vicious.
The first thing that comes to me is, “Do you trust me?”
I love trust, and I love the kind of things you can get off it.
Yeah, I’d like to be her. I’d like to feel that powerless, listening to every word She has to say. I wouldn’t mind feeling that kind of pain, as long as She’s there to hold me, to tell me that even though She loves me, She can’t let me go just yet.
So vulnerable.. so painful. But at least I wouldn’t be alone.
I’d be scared, hurting, crying, pleading for my freedom. And yet it provokes such mixed feelings. Because I enjoy feeling vulnerable, I take pleasure in knowing my body is in the hands of someone else. I can let all of my problems behind, and just turn into nothing more than a toy, just to amuse my captor.
I know I’m a twisted pup for saying this, but I’d like to have that trust someday. It won’t be enjoyable.. but the aftermath, on the other hand..
I’d do it just for that. I imagine after such a painful session, I’d get as many treats as I’d want :P
On another note, I seriously thought about deleting this entry, just to see what He would make me do :P
